1. So are we going TO THE GYM?
2. LIFE is what's up ahead.
3. I love to GO TO SCHOOL.
4. MASS CONFUSION of some sort.
5. I walk a THIN LINE MOST DAYS.
6. GOD is the true elixir of life!
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to HOPEFULLY FINDING OUR HOUSE, tomorrow my plans include GOING TO SEE WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE and Sunday, I want to NOT CRY AS I DROP MATT AT THE AIRPORT!
Friday, October 16, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Welcome to the gun show....
DB Curls SS w/Tri Rope Pushdowns
1 x 10 x 25 SS 1 x 10 x 70
1 x 10 x 25 SS 1 x 10 x 70
1 x 10 x 25 SS 1 x 10 x 70
Barbell Curls SS w/Skull Crushers
1 x 10 x 50 SS 1 x 12 x 40
1 x 10 x 50 SS 1 x 10 x 60
1 x 10 x 50 SS 1 x 10 x 60
Bicep Rope Cable Curls SS w/Tri Rope OH Ext
1 x 10 x 40 SS 1 x 10 x 60
1 x 10 x 50 SS 1 x 10 x 70
1 x 10 x 60 SS 1 x 10 x 80
then boring smoring cardio.. on the dreadmill, I mean treadmill incline at 15 and speed at 3.0 for 35 booty firming minutes - more cardio later while Trevor is at Karate....
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
How do you know???
How do you know when its the "voice of God" or just your own voice in your head???
How do you know when its the "will of God" and not just your own will???
First, please don't anyone take this as OH MY GOSH she is going to hell in a hand basket... a lot of this is new to me, learning to let go, to trust (yes even trust God sorry if that offends you)...
I mean listen I did not come out of my mothers womb with 14" biceps and able to curl a 30 pound dumbbell, I had to WORK toward that, same with being able to bench press upwards of 100+ pounds... But for me that is a physical thing that is tangible something I can see, I can feel, I can touch....I can understand how lifting weights works... because its a tangible thing for me..
And maybe for some of you... God is a 'tangible' thing... God has always been a part of my life... only, and sadly, not the most important part of my life. Not because He didn't or doesn't deserve that spot, but because it was not practiced in my home as a child and, well, you don't know what your not taught. I can't expect my soon to be step son to magically understand 12 x 12 if we (Matt and I) and school does not teach him that concept.
As a small child my only dealings with God were when my mother wanted to pawn us off on a Sunday so she could sleep in, or sleep with whoever was in her life for that week. The Baptist church bus came around about 7 or 8am... and we never returned home till after lunch time... yes she got free babysitting from God and the church members... Or as a teen my best friend at the time... her mom was very religious (not in a throw God in your face type of way) and when I stayed the night on Saturday we attended church on Sunday... Secretly I loved it because I FELT like part of a real family... and in some way, in my head no one elses, that was a bad thing... because it caused me to think as I got older, out of place in church... WHY?? well because EYE, by myself alone, was not part of a family... so I got this odd notion in my head that church was for families...
Then, well, I grew up, ok older maybe, and fell into the wrong crowds... drinking, drugs, random sex... I am not proud of what I did but nor am I ashamed of what I did...I'd like to change some things but I am not afforded that opportunity to change my past, only, my future, and not repeat those mistakes... rather learn from them... and I like to think I've learned a lot from this period in my life - but needless to say... mmm... God was not at the forefront of my life in this era of my being either - however I know He was definitely looking out for me because heaven knows I should have been dead, with all the crap I was doing and the people I was hanging out with...So this makes me wonder, now, in this era of my life... just what does God have in store for me???
So now here I am...44... and honestly what I consider a BABY CHRISTIAN... I am that 7 yr old still learning new concepts, but in a 44 yr old body and I am completely and totally and utterly confused and when you ask some 'seasoned' Christians about it, they look at you like your an idiot... YES I know shocking right... when the very thing God would expect them to do is nurture you, they look at you with that "OMG you don't know that, you don't understand that" look.
Believe me people I wish so many times I would have been one of those kids that bucked the trends and embraced God when I was younger and they teach you about God in a kids body with a kids mind and you grow up in it and in Him and then BAM your 44 and you've been following God for decades and while you are not perfect (as none of us are) you understand what God wants of you...
So again... I am lead back to my baby Christian questions....
How do you discern between the 'voice of God' and your own voice?
How do you discern between 'God's will for your life' and your own???
How do you know when its the "will of God" and not just your own will???
First, please don't anyone take this as OH MY GOSH she is going to hell in a hand basket... a lot of this is new to me, learning to let go, to trust (yes even trust God sorry if that offends you)...
I mean listen I did not come out of my mothers womb with 14" biceps and able to curl a 30 pound dumbbell, I had to WORK toward that, same with being able to bench press upwards of 100+ pounds... But for me that is a physical thing that is tangible something I can see, I can feel, I can touch....I can understand how lifting weights works... because its a tangible thing for me..
And maybe for some of you... God is a 'tangible' thing... God has always been a part of my life... only, and sadly, not the most important part of my life. Not because He didn't or doesn't deserve that spot, but because it was not practiced in my home as a child and, well, you don't know what your not taught. I can't expect my soon to be step son to magically understand 12 x 12 if we (Matt and I) and school does not teach him that concept.
As a small child my only dealings with God were when my mother wanted to pawn us off on a Sunday so she could sleep in, or sleep with whoever was in her life for that week. The Baptist church bus came around about 7 or 8am... and we never returned home till after lunch time... yes she got free babysitting from God and the church members... Or as a teen my best friend at the time... her mom was very religious (not in a throw God in your face type of way) and when I stayed the night on Saturday we attended church on Sunday... Secretly I loved it because I FELT like part of a real family... and in some way, in my head no one elses, that was a bad thing... because it caused me to think as I got older, out of place in church... WHY?? well because EYE, by myself alone, was not part of a family... so I got this odd notion in my head that church was for families...
Then, well, I grew up, ok older maybe, and fell into the wrong crowds... drinking, drugs, random sex... I am not proud of what I did but nor am I ashamed of what I did...I'd like to change some things but I am not afforded that opportunity to change my past, only, my future, and not repeat those mistakes... rather learn from them... and I like to think I've learned a lot from this period in my life - but needless to say... mmm... God was not at the forefront of my life in this era of my being either - however I know He was definitely looking out for me because heaven knows I should have been dead, with all the crap I was doing and the people I was hanging out with...So this makes me wonder, now, in this era of my life... just what does God have in store for me???
So now here I am...44... and honestly what I consider a BABY CHRISTIAN... I am that 7 yr old still learning new concepts, but in a 44 yr old body and I am completely and totally and utterly confused and when you ask some 'seasoned' Christians about it, they look at you like your an idiot... YES I know shocking right... when the very thing God would expect them to do is nurture you, they look at you with that "OMG you don't know that, you don't understand that" look.
Believe me people I wish so many times I would have been one of those kids that bucked the trends and embraced God when I was younger and they teach you about God in a kids body with a kids mind and you grow up in it and in Him and then BAM your 44 and you've been following God for decades and while you are not perfect (as none of us are) you understand what God wants of you...
So again... I am lead back to my baby Christian questions....
How do you discern between the 'voice of God' and your own voice?
How do you discern between 'God's will for your life' and your own???
Monday, October 12, 2009
on becoming a blog addict
sigh... it just keeps happening... i keep finding more and more blogs I really enjoy reading...
Some blogs are other athletes - lifters, runners, triathloners, etc..... I love reading what others are doing to stay in shape, or bring fitness to their world...
Some blogs are other ladies and gents following God - an I am continually amazed at what I am learning 'thru them'
Some blogs are just other moms - and of course I can always learn something there since this is all so new to me..
I know I don't find my blog anything of interest... other than it is misc... ramblings from my head... if I've learned one thing in therapy I've learned... get it OUT of your head and onto 'paper' - and others may not find their blogs interesting or anything someone would want to read... but I can assure you... I love reading others 'thoughts'
Some blogs are other athletes - lifters, runners, triathloners, etc..... I love reading what others are doing to stay in shape, or bring fitness to their world...
Some blogs are other ladies and gents following God - an I am continually amazed at what I am learning 'thru them'
Some blogs are just other moms - and of course I can always learn something there since this is all so new to me..
I know I don't find my blog anything of interest... other than it is misc... ramblings from my head... if I've learned one thing in therapy I've learned... get it OUT of your head and onto 'paper' - and others may not find their blogs interesting or anything someone would want to read... but I can assure you... I love reading others 'thoughts'
Some pictures from Sunday at the Plantation
Trevor
Me and Trevor (he was acting like a goof)
Me
Matt
Matt and I
Boone Hall Plantation
Sunday after church we took a trip to Boone Hall Plantation. This weekend was an event called The Taste of Charleston. Basically an event held on the plantation grounds were various local restaurants have samplings of some of their menu items. It was an overcast day and looked like any second we'd get rained on, but the rain held off. It was a very interesting piece of property and I'm sure without a 7 yr old in tow the history behind this plantation could have been taken in a bit more, but these are the things I have to learn as a step mom - if you click on the post title it will take you to the website.
There is a butterfly garden on the grounds that I'd venture to say rocks in spring season. But we did manage to capture a few butterflies while strolling the garden in front of the plantation. There are various events held on the grounds throughout the year. I know I'd love to go back around Christmas time, I can only imagine how decorated and beautiful the main house is during this time.
There is a butterfly garden on the grounds that I'd venture to say rocks in spring season. But we did manage to capture a few butterflies while strolling the garden in front of the plantation. There are various events held on the grounds throughout the year. I know I'd love to go back around Christmas time, I can only imagine how decorated and beautiful the main house is during this time.
Trevor w/Mellow Mushroom Man
Boone Hall Plantation
Back to the gym!!!
I decided to err on the side of caution this time and NOT work thru any pain in my neck. But today there was literally no pain at all so I went to the gym... and it felt good.. oh as usual cardio sucks... I'd rather lift than do cardio but cardio is a necessary evil, specially for women.
Worked on chest and back today:
Barbell Bench Press
1 x 12 x 95
2 x 12 x 105
1 Arm DB Row
3 x 10 x 50 (could feel the pain in my elbows on these, but I did work thru that)
Incline BB Bench Press
1 x 10 x 65
2 x 12 x 75
Lat Pulldowns
1 x 12 x 90
1 x 12 x 100
1 x 10 x 105
Incline DB Fly
3 x 12 x 20
Straight Arm Pulldowns
1 x 12 x 60
1 x 12 x 80
Then HO HUM boring cardio....
20 minutes on Stepmill level 5 - 1.5 miles/71floors
20 minutes on Dreadmill - Incline 10 to 15 and speed 3 to 3.5mph
possibly more cardio later if Trevor wants to go to the kids area this afternoon
Worked on chest and back today:
Barbell Bench Press
1 x 12 x 95
2 x 12 x 105
1 Arm DB Row
3 x 10 x 50 (could feel the pain in my elbows on these, but I did work thru that)
Incline BB Bench Press
1 x 10 x 65
2 x 12 x 75
Lat Pulldowns
1 x 12 x 90
1 x 12 x 100
1 x 10 x 105
Incline DB Fly
3 x 12 x 20
Straight Arm Pulldowns
1 x 12 x 60
1 x 12 x 80
Then HO HUM boring cardio....
20 minutes on Stepmill level 5 - 1.5 miles/71floors
20 minutes on Dreadmill - Incline 10 to 15 and speed 3 to 3.5mph
possibly more cardio later if Trevor wants to go to the kids area this afternoon
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