ok for many of you.... this might be a stupid question really.. some of you may be thinking.. wow I thought she was an intelligent woman :o) - in some aspects of life, I am, others... hey you don't know what you don't know..
I have always believed in God... but until the last year (heck maybe less) I've never been as, oh gosh what's the word I'm looking for here??????
MMMM - CONSUMED maybe...????
I've never been as consumed with wanting to know Him more, reading His word, getting involved in Bible study, seeking ways to be more involved at church, trying to listen to what He has to say, praying before meals, praying during the day, talking to Him in my car, attending church religiously (even when sick), paying attention to every word in church, surrounding myself, via blogs or in life, with others that follow this same road... I mean you get the idea right?
but I do admit and my brother will tell you the same... I've never quite 'gotten' tithing... my comment to my brother as he tithed when he was out of work... "don't you think God would want you to provide for your family first" (told ya I've believed all my life but never followed the way I am now)
Of late and as I read and understand more... I can imagine the Lord up there smiling as I start to 'get' things... I can imagine His face and imagine Him smiling and saying "I knew she'd figure it out someday, this one is a strong stubborn Irish red head"
So back to tithing... I know its 10% of your God given earnings but let me ask you this and this is where you may say.. does this gal have a brain?
If your paid bi-weekly and say you bring home $1000 (trust me I am NOT these days) and your 10% is $100, do you tithe that... lets say you got paid this past Friday (yesterday) and this Sunday (tomorrow) you tithe your $100.... mmm what do you do next Sunday because you don't get paid for another week?
I mean should you tithe this Sunday $50 and next Sunday $50????
Does God care how you do it???
Does this make sense to anyone????
believe me less than a year ago... to give 10% when I had bills and whatnot to pay would have been beyond my thinking... but I know God is really speaking and I am listening and trying as best as I know to be obiedant... and even my measly paycheck I got last week. after beign out of work since September, I did my tithing.... and what was funny to me.... it didn't even phase me, it was like I knew that is what I should do and did...and trust me when your bi-weekly paycheck is only $600, $60 is a chunk of change, but even those telling me I should take care of me first... I said no... God has taken care of me I need to start doing as I should...
I got some other things on my heart God is talking to me about that I will blog about as I figure out how to say it/come clean about it if you will....
Just please know decisions I need to make will be making things very hard on me... Please PLEASE keep me in your prayers as I wrestle with lots of stuff...