so today... I go for the good ole yearly ob/gyn appt... I'm all excited told her a couple weeks ago when I made the appt I needed a few extra moments to chat... see... I want to start a family with Matt, well WE want to start a family together.... expand our soon to be family I should say because we already have Trevor and I will love him like he was mine... heck I love him now...
well my dr's attitude about getting pregnant at almost 44 (will be 44 by the time we marry and get started) was less than stellar.... I mean she REALLY sucked the life out of me momentarily with her well at your age you will have a hard time conceiving and we should send you to a fertility specialist if your serious about this...dunno just NOT the conversation I expected from a female ob/gyn... I am one hell of a FIT and healthy almost 44 yr old woman... women are having babies later in life all the time.. so WTF is her problem...
I really left there with tears welling up, I want this for us... sent a text to Matt and his response confirms why I love this man so much...
don't cry babygirl you just prepare yourself to get pregnant and watch God work, don't let your faith be shaken by anyone! God's blessings are far from done....
I think his words of comfort made me cry more but a different kind of tear... He truly is amazing... so I get back to work and start searching for blogs on late life pregnancy... might as well have as much information at my disposale as I can...
found a great website shelaughs.com about that very subject and I knew without a doubt I was directed there by God's tap on my shoulder... not only is this a woman who encourages and supports late life pregnancy... she is a Christian woman... and the front page of her website talks about how God blessed Sarah (she was 90) and Abraham (he was 100) with a child...
then I get home from my appt with Rich today... and in my in box is my Friday (yeah a day early) growth trac devotional (yes I have tons of stuff, motivational, spiritual and otherwise sent to me daily and have for a while) and it talks about God's timing... I've copied and pasted it below.... yeah don't tell me God isn't whispering to me... wait... no... He is hardly whispering.... this is pretty damn loud and clear and do YOU think its coincidence this came today... a day early???? yeah... me neither!
Friday's Encouragement for Today for Kim
Encouragement for Today
"Lady in Waiting"
by Rebecca Ingram Powell, Author, Certified Speaker,
Director of 2004 Writer’s Track
Key Verse: “Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength. They will mount up with wings
like eagles; they will run and not get tired; they will walk and not become weary.” Isaiah 40:31
Lately my family and I have been doing some traveling to promote my book, Baby Boot Camp. One of the best parts of our trips has been getting to see the inner workings of television studios. These are exciting places to be, filled with interesting, energetic people who are constantly on the go. In that dynamic environment however, there is a calming oasis for guests called the green room.
You may have heard a talk show host refer to the green room. It’s simply a waiting room (I haven’t seen one yet that is actually green.) The green room is where you stay until it’s your turn. It’s not like a dressing room, where you would prepare for your segment. No, in the green room you are expected to be ready: nose powdered, hair sprayed, shoes tied!
Not long ago, we arrived early for an interview, and the producer offered to give my family a tour of the studio. As we stepped onto the set of the program, the crew was just beginning to arrive and get the lights turned on. I was ready for the interview, but no one else was. There were no cameramen; there was no host; there were no microphones. After the tour, we were kindly ushered back to the green room. Even though we were ready, it wasn’t time.
God’s timing is often difficult to understand. I believe that’s because we don’t see the big picture like He does. Often we think we are ready for something, but He knows we’re not. Whether we’re setting our sights on a new baby or a new job, we are hindered by our human view of the past and the present. Our limited knowledge results from a restricted perspective. We know what we’ve seen, and we know where we’ve been, but we don’t know what the Lord wants to take us.
When I toured the studio, I could have hopped up on that deserted set, plopped myself down on the couch, and told all about “Baby Boot Camp.” But my voice would have gone no farther than the four walls of that large room. I was ready! But it wasn’t time.
Jesus Christ often told His disciples, “It’s not my time.” The disciples were eager for Jesus to build His kingdom. Jesus had to constantly remind them of the crucial factor of time. Timing is so important. We discount that fact largely because waiting is a lost art. But our Lord knew how to wait. It is the essence of self-control, the power within that takes command over the flesh. Our Lord lived it.
A twelve-year-old Jesus surrendered to the authority of earthly parents.
The carpenter’s son worked with His hands like everybody else.
The accused Son of God stood before Herod without saying a word in His own defense.
The open hands of a 33-year-old man willingly accepted Calvary’s cruel spikes.
Jesus had the advantage of a heavenly perspective, of course. He saw the big picture and knew that His death would offer eternal life to everyone. For us, from our limited perspective, waiting is a life exercise that strengthens our faith muscles.
The green room isn’t so bad. In my case, I had a chance to rest from a long drive. I had time to meet new friends who were also waiting in the green room. Most important, I had some extra time to pray. Because I waited my turn, my voice went beyond the four walls of the studio and was broadcast into three states! I may not always have a heavenly perspective, but I know the One who does. I can trust Him while I wait.
My prayer for today: Dear Father, Sometimes I think You’ve forgotten me. I feel like I’m sitting in
Your green room, waiting for my name to be called. I’m ready! I really think I’m ready! But I confess
that in my eagerness, I’m not trusting You to know what’s best. Please forgive me. Help me to willingly
remain on Your schedule, Your perfect plan for my life. In Jesus name, Amen.
Application Steps: Are you a lady in waiting, eager for a baby, a promotion, or a ministry assignment?
Take time now to tell God that while you believe you are ready, you will be content to trust Him as you wait.