Loosing a friend...

Michael I hope you are resting in peace.... its hard to believe its been 2 yrs tomorrow, October 20th that you've been gone. 

So many things I wish I could have changed about our life together... so many things... things I did, things you did, things we did or didn't do as a married couple... But God does not afford us any opportunity to go back, only... forward and learn from our errors...

Even though we divorced we remained friends and I miss that friendship... those silly calls in the middle of the night.. or you always had some uncanny way of calling when I just needed a friend.  I am sorry to say that your mother has NOT been a good steward of anything you left behind... but then again, you probably know that...

Michael you were the only worthy human that woman ever produced, yet, you are the one that is no longer with us?  God could have surely taken one or both of your brothers but instead you were taken... the one that was loved by all and friend to many?  I still don't understand that and I know its not very Christian like of me to say how things should have went down but... I guess I just miss you, miss your friendship, and wish I could just say HI...

I know you were not perfect... I know WE were not perfect when we were together... but I did learn a lot and I will take that lesson with me into this marriage... I learned things to do and things not to do and as I always say:

EVERYTHING happens for a reason.